cap ou pas cap?
remember when you said forever?
i know we were just two kids in love maybe we were just in the moment but i really believed it. I felt it was so real every time we kissed, every time i felt your skin on mine, no one else’s but yours. i just wish i knew if you still remember everything that was us. It was just you and me no matter what. You promised you wouldn’t let anyone get in between us. I cant stop thinking about so many things ill never get to do again because those were things i can and will ever do with you like sleeping on the couch and taking the bus at seven in the morning. theres so much to remember or don’t you remember “if you ever leave me babyyyyyyy” or the frog games at Gameworks or when you dressed up like a girl or snoring in my ear and waking me up to hug you or play fighting or calling me Little Booger & bebe or giving each other carinito, i wonder if you still even have the sketchbook or teddy bears or the memo on your phone, i do. Two days before when you didn’t want me to leave being mad and you made sure i wouldn’t, remember? Maybe you do remember maybe you just don’t miss it, maybe you have it better with her. When you listen to a song do you still think of me or do you think of her? When you’re alone still awake at night do you think of me or do you think of her? Do you ever think of me? I cant help still believe what we had for those seven months but its getting harder and harder to believe now a days, you know, i hate to admit it but if you really loved me all that time you wouldn’t of given me up for anyone because i know i didn’t and i wouldn’t of and completely erase me from your life. I think you forgot, forgot me. It feels shitty, you treating me like a stranger everyday. I don’t know if i should still miss you, still love you after so much but again i cant help still being in love with you. After all of this how am i supposed to believe you again? I know i want to but how. You’re not acting like the person i fell in love with. I wish you still cared, i wish you missed me, i wish i really knew. At the end of the day whoevers lips i’m kissing aren’t yours. I don’t know how you find it so easy to kiss her because i know it isn’t for me. I want to know everything you’re thinking and feeling about anything, i promise ill just listen i don’t want you to carry it around, i want you to show me so i can feel it too. No matter how much nights i spend replaying moments in my head the stars nor the moon are going to tell me when it went wrong. Do you think about those moments? I know we fought because we cared and sometimes we pushed it a little too far but if you keep pushing then the caring will go away. I pushed. Remember one time you told me that good things happen to people who wait? So ill wait maybe you don’t want me anymore so it wont be you but ill be waiting because i know theres something that just has to happen. When i wake up, where your dreams are just beginning to slip away and you’re still kind of asleep i swear i can still feel you next to me, like before, really really close and asleep and feeling really warm and waking me up kissing me all over my face and i try to keep you with me.. The last promise; i have my necklace and i guess im just waiting for just one day.
I want one more day, one more kiss, one more hug one more real i love you, but if you don’t feel it i cant have it.
I just really cant get you off my mind but from now its all on you. I just want everything to stop
